Being a mom...

Martin, Autumn, Hunter and I


Hunter Dean Baldwin 7lbs. 6oz. 21 and a half inches long


When you are a mother, you are never really alone in your thoughts. A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child. ~Sophia Loren, Women and Beauty



Since today is Mother's day, I thought I would blog about being a mother and how it has changed my life. Now, I am the last person that I would have ever thought would have had kids. I am impatient and selfish and would have never really considered myself nurturing or maternal.

I had Autumn at the age of 19. A little younger than what I ever thought I would have had kids if I had any, but none the less I became a mother at 19. The moment I held her I changed. I know people probably say that a lot, but for me it was true. It was hard to understand how you could love someone so much that you just met.

I've loved every minute of mothering Autumn. It's so full of surprises and rewards. Her and me have been through a lot together at this point and a lot of it I wouldn't have made it through if I hadn't have had her there by my side. She has loved me unconditionally even though I haven't been perfect or made every right decision. She is my sunshine and always will be.

Three weeks ago, Martin and I were proud to add our handsome son Hunter Dean to our family. He is adorable and we are all so proud of him already. I can't wait to see what he has in store for us!

Being a mother is a lot of hard work and you don't get paid for it. It is stressful and sometimes it's super hard to make the right decisions. In everything I do though, my children come first. Everything I do I have to think about how it will effect them. All in all though, I wouldn't give back one stressful day or tear shed.